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Welcome to SoulSavingSeed.com
Welcome to SoulSavingSeed.com
SoulSavingSeed.com exists to explore the big, difficult questions about God, faith, and life—questions that you may have wondered about but haven’t found satisfying answers for. Here, we tackle these questions thoughtfully and honestly, providing clear explanations rooted in reason, evidence, and Scripture.
Whether you’re skeptical, curious, or simply seeking understanding, this site is designed to plant seeds of insight that might change the way you see God and the meaning of life. From examining the evidence for God’s existence and the reliability of the Bible, to understanding why Jesus’ life, death, and resurrection matter, our goal is to provide answers that are both intellectually honest and spiritually meaningful.
Scroll through our questions and answers to explore topics such as:
How do we know God exists?
Why is Christianity true compared to other religions?
How can a perfect God allow suffering?
Why do we need a Savior, and why was Jesus’ death necessary?
How can we trust the Bible, and what is the significance of Jesus’ resurrection?
Even if you haven’t found satisfying answers elsewhere, you can explore clear, thoughtful explanations here—answers grounded in reason and evidence.
SoulSavingSeed.com is a place to ask questions, think critically, and explore challenging topics about God, faith, and life.
How do we know that God exists?
The Cosmological Argument for God:
The very existence of the universe points to the need for a cause. Everything we see—planets, stars, even time itself—had a beginning. You might think the Big Bang explains this, but it only raises a deeper question: what caused the Big Bang? Whatever brought the universe into existence must come from outside of it—beyond time, space, and everything we understand.
If the Big Bang needed something to set it off, we’d fall into an endless loop with no real beginning. The only way to make sense of it is to recognize that the universe must come from an eternal being—one that has always existed and depends on nothing else. In this view, God becomes the most reasonable explanation for why anything exists at all.
The Teleological Argument for God:
Why does the universe appear so finely tuned for life? The teleological argument claims that the remarkable order, complexity, and precision we observe point to an intelligent designer—God. If there were no God, the delicate balance of the universe’s laws and constants would have to be a product of sheer chance. But the odds of this happening randomly are staggeringly small—so small that it challenges belief in mere coincidence.
Consider the Earth itself. Our planet is positioned at just the right distance from the sun, with the perfect atmosphere, temperature, and chemical makeup to support life. The oceans cover just the right amount of the surface, the magnetic field shields us from deadly radiation, and the tilt of the planet creates a stable climate. Change any of these factors slightly, and life as we know it would be impossible. Imagine throwing a tiny paper airplane into a vast room and having it land perfectly on a single centimeter-sized target—over and over again. That’s the kind of improbability we are talking about with the conditions for life. Would you really call that luck, or does it point to careful design?
Some suggest that this apparent design could arise from natural processes or even a multiverse—a hypothetical set of countless universes, each with different laws. But these explanations only raise deeper questions: why do the laws themselves exist? Why are they orderly and intelligible, capable of supporting life and being understood by human reason? Random processes alone cannot account for the precision and harmony we observe. True design implies purpose, and purpose implies a mind.
Even in smaller systems, the evidence of design is striking. DNA carries complex information, cells operate like tiny factories with interdependent parts, and ecosystems maintain delicate balances. We never assume such intricate systems appear by accident; we naturally infer intelligence. The universe itself is the grandest example of this coordinated complexity, from the structure of galaxies to the laws of physics.
The teleological argument concludes that the fine-tuning, order, and purpose of the universe cannot be adequately explained by chance or blind forces. The most reasonable explanation is that it was intentionally designed. The designer who established the precise laws, constants, and conditions necessary for life is God.
The Moral Argument for God:
Why do we instinctively believe that some actions—like torturing innocent children—are objectively wrong, regardless of personal opinion or cultural norms? The moral argument for the existence of God claims that this deep-seated sense of objective morality only makes sense if there is a transcendent moral lawgiver—God. If there is no God, then moral values are merely human inventions, shifting with time and circumstance. But if God exists, then morality is rooted in His unchanging nature, making moral truths objective, universal, and binding.
Take the example of torturing a child for fun. Across cultures and throughout history, most people would agree this act is deeply wrong—not just socially unacceptable, but morally abhorrent. Now imagine someone who genuinely believes such an act is permissible. Even if that person is sincere, our moral intuition tells us that they are still wrong. Their belief doesn’t make the action any less evil. This suggests that morality is not determined by individual or cultural preferences—it reflects an objective standard that transcends both. Without an objective moral standard, we have no grounds to say that such acts are truly wrong. The best explanation for this standard is a moral lawgiver whose nature defines goodness itself: God.
Some secular thinkers argue that morality is not grounded in anything transcendent, but instead evolved over time as a survival mechanism. According to this view, our sense of right and wrong is just a byproduct of evolution—something that helped early humans live together in groups, avoid conflict, and raise offspring more successfully. Traits like empathy, fairness, or loyalty would have had survival value, and so they were naturally selected over generations. In this view, what we call “morality” is just a useful illusion—an instinct that encourages behavior that helps the species survive.
At first glance, this seems like a reasonable explanation. After all, cooperative societies do tend to thrive more than chaotic or violent ones. But there’s a serious problem with this view: if our moral instincts are nothing more than survival tools, then they don't actually tell us what is right or wrong—only what is useful for survival. In other words, morality becomes relative, not objective. It may feel wrong to lie, cheat, or kill, but under this view, those feelings are simply biological impulses designed to keep the group functioning. They're not connected to any deeper moral truth.
This leads to an uncomfortable question: if our sense of morality is just the result of evolutionary pressure, why should we trust it? Evolution is about what works, not about what’s true. For example, if a false belief helps a species survive, evolution has no problem preserving it. So if morality is just a trick of evolution—a way to make us behave in socially beneficial ways—then it's possible that many of our strongest moral convictions aren’t grounded in truth at all. They're just helpful illusions. But if that’s the case, how can we claim that anything is truly, objectively right or wrong?
Consider this thought experiment: A powerful scientist is stranded on an island with a severely injured companion. The scientist holds in their mind a cure for a deadly disease that will otherwise wipe out millions—but they are slowly starving. The only way to survive long enough to be rescued and share the cure is to kill and consume their injured companion. From an evolutionary or utilitarian perspective, this might seem justifiable—even noble: one life sacrificed to save millions. Yet something in us resists that reasoning. We might feel deep sorrow about allowing millions to die if we do nothing, but a far greater moral weight in committing the act of killing an innocent person. We recognize that allowing suffering and causing it are not the same—and that distinction runs deeper than logic or survival. That moral hesitation reveals a deeper truth—our moral compass points beyond evolution and utility. It appeals to something higher, a moral order that tells us some acts are wrong regardless of the consequences.
If morality were simply about evolutionary advantage or social convenience, then actions like murder, torture, or betrayal could be excused under the right conditions. But we don’t see it that way. Deep down, we recognize that some things are wrong—always and everywhere. That kind of moral knowledge points to a reality greater than ourselves. The moral argument for God holds that this objective morality must be grounded in a transcendent source—a moral lawgiver who defines what is truly good. That lawgiver is God.
How do we know that Christianity is right and other religions are wrong?
How do we know that Christianity is right and other religions are wrong?
Christianity stands apart from other world religions not only because of its unique theological claims but also due to the substantial historical evidence supporting the truth of its message. One of the most compelling pieces of evidence for the reliability of Christianity is the overwhelming manuscript evidence for the New Testament. With over 25,000 manuscripts in various languages—including Greek, Latin, Syriac, and Coptic—the New Testament is the most attested ancient text. The time gap between the composition of the New Testament and the earliest surviving manuscripts is remarkably short—often just a few decades. For example, the Rylands Papyrus P52, a fragment of the Gospel of John, dates to around 125 CE, just 30-50 years after the original writings. This is a notably brief period compared to other ancient texts, such as the Bhagavad Gita, a central scripture of Hinduism, which has surviving manuscripts dating from around 1,000 years after the original composition. The early dating and the sheer number of manuscripts give us confidence in the accuracy of the New Testament’s transmission, preserving the teachings and events recorded in the Gospels.
In addition to the manuscript evidence, the prophetic fulfillment of Jesus' death and resurrection further attests to the truth of Christianity. It’s the only religion where the Messiah, Jesus Christ, not only foretold his own death and resurrection but also fulfilled these prophecies, providing the ultimate proof of his divine nature. The Gospels—Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John—contain multiple references where Jesus explicitly predicts his suffering, crucifixion, and resurrection on the third day (Matthew 16:21, Mark 8:31, Luke 9:22, John 2:19-22). These four books were written by those who either witnessed the events or were close associates of Jesus’ apostles, ensuring their reliability. Furthermore, all four Gospels align on the central message of Jesus' death and resurrection, yet the differences in detail suggest they were not the result of collusion, but rather independent eyewitness testimonies. In fact, by today’s legal standards, this diversity of accounts would strengthen their credibility, as multiple, consistent testimonies from separate witnesses are often seen as more reliable in a court of law.
In addition to the historical evidence of the resurrection, Christianity offers a message of salvation that is distinct from all other religions. While many world religions, such as Hinduism, Islam, and Buddhism, teach that salvation is attained through personal effort, moral works, or ritual sacrifice, Christianity alone presents salvation as a gift. In Ephesians 2:8-9, the Apostle Paul writes, “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast.” Christianity teaches that salvation cannot be earned but is freely given by God through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. This stands in stark contrast to the belief systems of other religions, where individuals must strive to achieve salvation through good deeds or self-sacrifice. In Christianity, Jesus' sacrifice on the cross was sufficient to atone for humanity's sins, and by trusting in Him, people can receive forgiveness and eternal life as a gracious gift. This assurance of salvation, entirely based on God's grace, is a unique feature of Christianity that makes it not just a religion, but the only true way to reconcile with God.
How do we know that the Bible is true if it was written by fallible humans?
The question of the Bible’s truthfulness, despite being written by imperfect humans, can be addressed by examining its historical accuracy and fulfilled prophecies. One of the most compelling examples is the prophecy concerning King Cyrus of Persia, found in Isaiah 44:28 and Isaiah 45:1. These verses, written in the 8th century BCE, astonishingly name Cyrus as the ruler who would allow the Jews to return and rebuild Jerusalem—about 150 years before his birth.
Isaiah 44:28 states:
"who says of Cyrus, ‘He is my shepherd, and he shall fulfill all my purpose’; saying of Jerusalem, ‘She shall be built,’ and of the temple, ‘Your foundation shall be laid.’”
Isaiah 45:1 continues:
"Thus says the Lord to his anointed, to Cyrus, whose right hand I have grasped, to subdue nations before him and to loose the belts of kings, to open doors before him that gates may not be closed:"
At the time Isaiah made this prophecy, Jerusalem was still intact, making the idea of its destruction and later restoration seem far-fetched. However, in 586 BCE, King Nebuchadnezzar II of Babylon conquered Jerusalem, destroyed the First Temple, and exiled the Jewish people. This exile lasted several decades until the rise of Cyrus the Great, founder of the Persian Empire.
In 539 BCE, Cyrus conquered Babylon and soon after issued a decree allowing exiled peoples, including the Jews, to return to their homelands and rebuild their places of worship. Ezra 1:1-4 records this event, perfectly aligning with Isaiah’s prophecy. This decree is further confirmed by the Cyrus Cylinder, an archaeological artifact discovered in Babylon, which details Cyrus' policies of religious tolerance and the repatriation of displaced peoples. The accounts of Greek historians Herodotus and Xenophon also describe Cyrus as a benevolent and strategic ruler, further corroborating the biblical record.
This example (among many others) demonstrates that, while the Bible was written by imperfect humans, it contains knowledge and predictions that go beyond human capability. The precise fulfillment of prophecies, the alignment with historical and archaeological evidence, and the consistency of biblical records suggest that the Bible was divinely inspired rather than merely a product of human authorship.
If even one prophecy in the Bible can be verified as divinely inspired, then it stands to reason that the rest of Scripture must be held to the same standard. A book cannot be partially divine and partially human in origin—either it is the inspired Word of God, or it is not. If we accept that God has spoken through the Bible at all, then we must also accept that He has the power and intention to ensure the consistency and integrity of His message throughout the whole text. To claim that only certain parts are divine would make us the arbiters of truth, judging which words belong to God and which do not—something no human is qualified to do. The case of Cyrus the Great is just one of many fulfilled prophecies, but each one strengthens the argument for the Bible’s divine authorship. As 2 Timothy 3:16 affirms, "All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness." The remarkable accuracy of biblical prophecy, combined with historical and archaeological validation, strongly suggests that the Bible was not merely written by humans, but through them—guided by divine revelation.
Why did God create us, especially if he already knew we would sin and suffer?
Why did God create us, especially if he already knew we would sin and suffer?
God created us out of love because love is at the very core of His nature. In 1 John 4:8, we’re told, “God is love,” which means that everything He does, including creating us, is an expression of love. He created us with the ability to love and to experience love, not as robots who are forced to follow commands, but as individuals who can make genuine choices. Love by its very nature requires choice—it can't be forced. So, God’s desire was to create beings who could freely choose to love Him and each other. The beauty of this freedom is that it allows us to truly know love, both as something we receive from God and as something we give back to Him and to others.
However, this freedom also meant that we could choose to turn away from Him. In the garden of Eden, Adam and Eve were given the choice to obey or disobey God, and they chose the latter. Romans 5:12 explains, “Therefore, just as sin came into the world through one man, and death through sin, and so death spread to all men because all sinned.” Sin entered the world through this choice, and because of that, the consequences of sin—suffering, brokenness, and separation from God—became part of the human experience.
Suffering, in a way, is a result of this gift of free will. While free will allows us to love, it also opened the door to pain, mistakes, and choices that lead to harm—whether it's our own decisions or those of others. But it’s essential to understand that suffering itself is not God's desire for us; it’s a consequence of the freedom we have been given. Deuteronomy 30:19 presents this reality, saying, “I have set before you life and death, blessing and curse. Therefore, choose life, that you and your offspring may live.”
An analogy could be that of adults considering having children. The parents know there is a risk involved and understand that there will suffering along the way—whether from the pain of childbirth, the challenges of raising children, or the hardships a child will face in life. But despite this, they still choose to have children because the potential for love, growth, joy, and connection outweigh the suffering. Similarly, God, knowing the suffering that would result from our sin, chose to create us anyway because of the eternal and profound good that can come from our love for Him, the redemption He offers, and the possibility of eternal life with Him. Romans 8:18 reminds us, “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.”
Why do we need a savior?
Our need for a savior is rooted in the reality of sin and the justice of God. At its core, sin is a rejection of God's perfect character—His holiness, righteousness, and justice. God's character is such that He cannot tolerate sin in His presence because it is in direct opposition to His nature.
Because of Adam and Eve’s original sin, every person is born into a broken world with a sinful nature, thus making the need for redemption unavoidable. And since God is perfectly just, He cannot overlook sin or dismiss it without consequence. Just as human courts require justice to be served, divine justice demands that wrongdoing be accounted for. Nahum 1:3 declares, "The Lord is slow to anger but great in power; the Lord will not leave the guilty unpunished." If people are guilty of sin, then there must be an appropriate response—either punishment or atonement.
In human society, justice demands that all crimes receive appropriate consequences. Lesser offenses, such as theft or vandalism, may warrant community service or short-term imprisonment, while more severe crimes like murder or treason often result in life sentences or even the death penalty. The legal system operates on a scale of severity, ensuring that punishments fit the crime. The same is true for God’s divine legal system; however, every sin—whether a white lie or a murder—is of the utmost severity because all sin separates humanity from His perfect holiness. James 2:10 makes this point clear: "For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it." This is why a savior is necessary if we wish to avoid the death penalty—because only through atonement can the weight of sin be justly dealt with, allowing humanity to avoid eternal separation from God.
Why was Jesus’ death necessary to save humanity?
Why was Jesus’ death necessary to save humanity?
Sin is more than a mistake—it’s a serious offense against the moral perfection of God. Because God is perfectly holy and just, He cannot overlook or excuse sin. As Habakkuk 1:13 declares, “Your eyes are too pure to look on evil; you cannot tolerate wrongdoing.” Sin creates a separation between God and humanity—not just physical death, but eternal separation from His presence. Isaiah 59:2 states, “But your iniquities have made a separation between you and your God, and your sins have hidden His face from you so that He does not hear.” In His justice, God requires that sin be judged. As Romans 6:23 warns, “For the wages of sin is death.” Death, in this sense, is not just the end of life, but the rightful consequence of rebellion against a holy God.
In the Old Testament, God established a temporary system of animal sacrifices to provide atonement for sin. Leviticus 17:11 explains, “For the life of the flesh is in the blood, and I have given it for you on the altar to make atonement for your souls, for it is the blood that makes atonement by the life.” Animals were required because they were innocent—they had done nothing to deserve death. Their unblemished condition and blamelessness made them fitting symbols of substitution. When an animal was sacrificed, it served as a visible reminder that sin leads to death, and that only the death of an innocent could cover the guilt of the guilty. The life of the animal was offered in place of the sinner’s, and it pointed forward to the kind of sacrifice that could fully remove sin.
However, the animal sacrifices were never sufficient to completely take away sin. Although animals are innocent, they are not sinless in the fullest sense because they lack the ability to choose obedience or rebellion. Sin requires moral awareness and accountability—something only humans possess. Because animals had no moral conscience, their sacrifice could never provide a full and perfect payment for sin—only a temporary covering. As Hebrews 10:4 says, “For it is impossible for the blood of bulls and goats to take away sins.” The entire sacrificial system was a shadow, pointing ahead to a greater and final sacrifice that would fully satisfy God’s justice and remove sin once for all.
That perfect and final sacrifice is Jesus Christ. Unlike animals, Jesus was not just innocent—He was truly sinless. Because He was fully human, He possessed moral awareness and the ability to sin, yet He never did. Hebrews 4:15 explains that “we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin.” His perfection made Him the only one who could fully bear the punishment for humanity’s sin. Hebrews 9:26 declares, “But as it is, he has appeared once for all at the end of the ages to put away sin by the sacrifice of himself.” Jesus’ death was not just another temporary atonement—it was the ultimate and final payment for sin. Hebrews 10:14 confirms, “For by a single offering he has perfected for all time those who are being sanctified.” Through His perfect and complete atonement, Jesus provides eternal reconciliation with God for all who believe, making it possible for sinners to enter God’s presence, not by their own merit, but by His grace.
How can we be confident that Jesus was resurrected, and what is the significance of His resurrection?
We know that Jesus was resurrected because of the detailed eyewitness accounts recorded in the New Testament. One of the clearest and earliest summaries of these events comes from the Apostle Paul in 1 Corinthians 15:3–6, where he writes, “For what I received I passed on to you as of first importance: that Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures, that he was buried, that he was raised on the third day according to the Scriptures, and that he appeared to Cephas, and then to the Twelve. After that, he appeared to more than five hundred of the brothers and sisters at the same time, most of whom are still living.” Paul emphasizes that many people witnessed the risen Christ, and he presents this as a historical fact that could be verified by others at the time.
The Gospels also give detailed accounts of the resurrection. In Luke 24:1–6, the women who went to Jesus’ tomb found it empty, and angels told them, “Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here; he has risen!” Later in that same chapter, Jesus appears to two disciples on the road to Emmaus and then to the larger group of disciples, even eating in front of them to prove He was physically alive (Luke 24:36–43). In John 20, Jesus appears to Mary Magdalene, then to the disciples, and later to Thomas, who had doubted. Jesus tells him, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe” (John 20:27). These firsthand encounters, recorded by multiple authors, form the foundation of the Christian belief that Jesus truly rose from the dead.
But the resurrection is not just a historical event—it is a powerful declaration of who Jesus is. According to Romans 1:4, Jesus “was declared to be the Son of God in power according to the Spirit of holiness by his resurrection from the dead.” His rising from the grave confirms that He is who He claimed to be, and it validates the truth of His teachings. The resurrection shows that Jesus is not merely a teacher or prophet, but the living Son of God who holds power over life and death.
Even more, Jesus’ resurrection brings hope and new life to those who believe in Him. It means that His sacrifice for sin was accepted by God, making a way for sinners to be made right with Him. As Paul writes in Romans 4:25, “He was delivered over to death for our sins and was raised to life for our justification.” It also means that His followers have the promise of eternal life. In John 11:25–26, Jesus says, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; and whoever lives by believing in me will never die.” Because Jesus rose, Christians have the assurance that death is not the end. His resurrection is the guarantee of forgiveness and eternal life.
What happens if you reject Jesus as your savior?
What happens if you reject Jesus as your savior?
Rejecting Jesus as your Savior means experiencing eternal separation from God, a separation that is described throughout Scripture as a state of profound loss and suffering. This separation is not simply a physical distance but a spiritual reality where a person is cut off from the presence of God, the source of all life and goodness. As 2 Thessalonians 1:9 explains, those who reject Christ “will be punished with everlasting destruction and shut out from the presence of the Lord and from the glory of his might.” This “shutting out” is the ultimate consequence of sin left unforgiven.
The Bible describes this separation as being cast into a place of eternal punishment and darkness. Jesus said in Matthew 25:41, “Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels.’” This eternal fire symbolizes the intense suffering that comes from being apart from God’s mercy and grace. Verse 46 continues, “Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.” This contrast highlights the permanent nature of separation for those who deny Jesus.
Being separated from God means living apart from His love, peace, and joy forever. Scripture often portrays God’s presence as the source of light and life, and separation from Him as darkness and death. Psalm 88:6 expresses this reality, saying, “You have put me in the lowest pit, in the darkest depths.” This darkness is not just physical but spiritual—a place where hope and comfort are absent.
The Bible also calls this separation “the second death.” In Revelation 20:14-15, it says, “Then death and Hades were thrown into the lake of fire. The lake of fire is the second death. Anyone whose name was not found written in the book of life was thrown into the lake of fire.” This second death is eternal—without relief, without end—signifying complete and final separation from God’s presence.
Ultimately, eternal separation from God is the worst possible outcome because it means the loss of all that is good, loving, and life-giving. Without Jesus, a person remains in spiritual blindness and bondage, cut off from the hope and renewal that come through Him. This separation is irreversible after death, making the choice to deny Jesus eternally consequential.
Why does God seem to answer some prayers but not others—and why do bad things happen to good people?
Unanswered prayers can be deeply painful and confusing, especially when we believe we're asking for something good or just. But one way to understand this silence is as a method God uses to draw us closer to Him. Just as answered prayers can deepen our gratitude and faith, unanswered ones can awaken a deeper longing for God Himself, beyond just His gifts. In His infinite wisdom, God knows the right balance for every person—how much blessing, how much difficulty, how much certainty, and how many unanswered questions we each need in order to grow in faith, trust, and character. Sometimes, silence from God is not absence but invitation: an invitation to trust Him more deeply, seek Him more earnestly, and find Him not just in what He gives but in who He is. As Romans 5:3–4 says, “We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.”
Think of how good human parents raise their children. A loving parent doesn't say "yes" to every heartfelt request their child makes, even when those requests come from a place of genuine love or concern. Imagine a teenager who wants to transfer schools to help a struggling friend feel less alone—a request rooted in compassion and loyalty. But the parent, knowing their child’s academic needs, emotional limits, or long-term goals, may say no—not because the motive is wrong, but because the timing or cost is. Saying no in this case builds deeper trust, maturity, and an understanding that not every good desire is meant to be fulfilled immediately or in the way we expect. Likewise, God’s unanswered prayers may be forming the wisdom and spiritual strength we can’t yet see. Hebrews 12:10–11 reflects this idea: “God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.”
As for why truly terrible things happen to good people—tragedies, loss, suffering that feels unbearable—this is one of the deepest mysteries of life and faith. The Bible teaches that we live in a broken, chaotic, and sin-filled world—not because God intended it that way, but because humanity chose rebellion over relationship with Him. In Genesis 3, when sin entered the world through Adam and Eve’s disobedience, the perfection of creation was fractured. Since then, suffering, death, and injustice have been part of life. Romans 8:22 says, “We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time.” This world is not functioning as God originally designed it, and the ripple effects of sin touch everything—from natural disasters to personal tragedies. God does not promise to shield us from all pain, but He promises to be near: “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit” (Psalm 34:18). The clearest picture of this is the cross itself—God entering into our suffering through Jesus Christ, taking on pain, injustice, and death to ultimately redeem it.
And while He may allow great suffering, He never wastes it. As Romans 8:28 assures us, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Often, it is through the deepest pain that people encounter the deepest transformation. This doesn't make evil good, but it shows that God can bring redemption even from the worst of circumstances. Some lives become unexpected testimonies of strength, compassion, and faith precisely because of their suffering—and not in spite of it.
My Story of Faith
My Story of Faith
I grew up in a good home. My parents were kind people who raised me to be respectful, honest, and hardworking. Though these are all Christian values, we never really talked about God. Religion wasn’t discouraged, but it wasn’t seen as central—more something to respect culturally than to truly believe or live by. Success and achievement were valued in our home, but having fun and enjoying life mattered too. Although my parents never demanded perfection, I learned early to measure myself by my accomplishments—mostly grades and sports.
As I got older, I began to care less about being successful and more about chasing pleasure. I wanted to feel good, live in the moment, and forget about expectations. A big part of it was just wanting to fit in—I didn’t want to be the odd one out or feel like I was missing the life everyone else seemed to be enjoying. So I started drinking, partying, and sleeping around. I experimented with drugs and became addicted to pornography, all while pretending I was just being young and free. On the surface, I came off as laid-back and confident. But the reality was, I was relying more and more on things that left me feeling disconnected and empty. Underneath it all, I felt lost—like I was constantly performing, trying to keep up with an image that was slowly pulling me apart.
I didn’t know it at the time, but one of the first steps in my journey back to God came through something that felt like a setback. One summer in my early 20s, I got seriously injured playing soccer. I hurt my foot, knee, and hip to the point where I couldn’t walk—and eventually learned I’d never be able to play sports again. For someone who had always found identity in physical strength and activity, it was devastating. But looking back, I can see how God was using that season of loss and stillness to get my attention—to slow me down, strip away distractions, and begin reeling me back to Him.
During the years that followed—especially through COVID—I started diving into politics and conspiracy theories. I was trying to make sense of what was happening in the world, and the more I looked, the more evil I saw. Corruption, lies, and manipulation were everywhere, especially from people in positions of power who were supposed to protect and serve. I started learning how some people in authority seemed connected to dark spiritual forces and influences—whether knowingly or not—and that these forces appeared to have real power in the world. That disturbed me. If evil can be that real and spiritually charged, wouldn’t it also make sense that a good spiritual force exist too? Maybe good isn’t just a moral ideal or wishful thinking—maybe it’s real, active, and pushing back against the darkness. That’s when the idea of God started to become more than just a concept—it became a real possibility: the source of truth, justice, and hope in a world that desperately needs all three.
That curiosity grew into something deeper. I started reading and watching apologetics—things about why we can trust the Bible, how we know God exists, and the historical evidence for Jesus. For the first time, I realized faith wasn’t blind; it was based on something solid. God was becoming more than an idea—He was becoming someone I wanted to know.
But my breaking point—the moment that really brought everything into the light—came through a conversation with my fiancée at the time. She asked me if I struggled with lust for other women, and I told her the truth: I did. That honesty led us into a really painful and difficult season. We had to rebuild trust from the ground up. It forced me to confront my sin—not just the outward behaviors, but the condition of my heart. I couldn’t pretend anymore. I was broken, I needed healing, and I couldn’t fix myself.
All of these moments—the injury, the disillusionment with the world, the search for truth, and the brokenness in my relationship—came together like puzzle pieces. They exposed my need for a Savior. And that’s when I finally stopped running and turned toward Jesus.
Looking back, I can see how God was working through every painful, confusing, and humbling moment. From the injury that stopped me in my tracks, to the season of searching through the chaos of the world, to the conviction and heartache in my relationship—He was drawing me to Himself the entire time. At first, I thought I was just trying to make sense of life, but now I realize God was pursuing me when I wasn’t even looking for Him.
When I finally surrendered, I didn’t come with answers or strength—I came with failure, regret, and a deep awareness that I couldn’t fix myself. But that’s exactly where Jesus met me. I came face-to-face with the truth that He didn’t die for people who have it all together—He died for people like me: broken, searching, and in need of grace.
Since putting my faith in Christ, I haven’t become perfect, but I have been made new. God is continuing to heal parts of my heart I didn’t even know were wounded. I no longer feel the need to chase approval, numb my emptiness, or pretend to have it all together. I have peace knowing my identity is in Him—and joy in walking with Him daily.
What once felt like random setbacks or failures, I now see as God’s mercy. He broke through my pride, opened my eyes to truth, and gave me a new heart. Everything I once depended on—success, pleasure, control—had to fall away so that I could finally receive the only thing that lasts: a relationship with the living God.
Psalm 19 profoundly captures what I’ve come to understand: “The heavens declare the glory of God” (v.1)—God’s reality has always been visible, even when I was ignoring it. His Word is “perfect, reviving the soul… right, rejoicing the heart” (vv.7–8), and I’ve found that following His ways brings the peace and clarity I was always chasing elsewhere. But it also confronts me with the truth that I’m not good on my own—but God has been merciful to me: “Who can discern his errors? Forgive my hidden faults… Keep your servant also from willful sins” (vv.12–13). Now, my desire is summed up in the final verse: “Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer” (v.14).
What should you do now?
What should you do now?
Now that you’ve explored these important questions, the next step is to take action in a way that helps you grow spiritually and find answers that resonate with you personally. You might start by reading the Bible to get a deeper understanding of God’s message—using a tool like the Through the Word app can make this easier by guiding you chapter by chapter with clear explanations. Prayer is another powerful way to connect with God and seek guidance. Finding a local church community can provide support, fellowship, and opportunities to learn alongside others.
If you have any lingering questions or want to talk through your thoughts, don’t hesitate to reach out to me at SoulSavingSeed@gmail.com —I’m here to help. Finally, if anything I’ve shared made you reconsider your beliefs or sparked new curiosity, I’d love to hear about that too. Your journey is personal, but you don’t have to walk it alone.
What does it mean to trust Jesus?
Trusting Jesus means choosing to believe that He is who He says He is—the Son of God who died for your sins and rose again. It’s a personal decision to turn away from trying to handle life on your own and to rely on Him for forgiveness, guidance, and new life. When you trust Jesus, you’re inviting Him to be your Savior and guide every step of your journey.
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